Monday, August 10, 2009

1 month and 3 years

I feel like I should blog tonight but I don't have a lot of energy so this will be short. Today is a very sad day for me. My precious baby girl died in my arms 3 years ago. My heart just hurts when I think of all the things we have missed over the past 3 years; her first tooth, her first steps/words, seeing her become a toddler and not a baby anymore. I wonder what her personality would be like, would she be a calm child or a little monkey like her brother? No mater how many more children we have she will always be my first and today will always be a hard day.

I have to admit that the day was easier with Brandon to distract me, although he wasn't exactly in a great mood all day. Speaking of Brandon today is also a big day for him; he has been home with us for 1 month! Time has just flown by and, although we still have a ways to go, he has just made such tremendous progress adjusting to a whole new world.

Ok, that's all I can do tonight. Today is just too emotional and I don't have the energy to write all my feelings down (nor do I have enough tissues in the house).

Good night!


Teri said...

big hugs to all three of you... (((jen)))

Jen said...

(((((BIG HUGS)))))

Kim said...

Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family on this very hard day.

Sunnymama said...

That has to be a bitter sweet moment. I have no idea what that is like but I am sorry for your loss. So glad Brandon is doing well!

theholylands said...

We are thinking and praying for you today and are so glad you have Brandon to hold in your arms as you think about sweet Maddy. Much love to all of you!!!